"Some dog breeds like Pomeranians will turn their nose up at bleach after tasting it," Hovda says. See parent question. Dealing With Guilt When You Caused Your Pets Death image by Laurie. I immediately picked her up. A careless groomer gives a dog razor burn, which becomes infected and requires medical attention. By accepting all cookies, you agree to our use of cookies to deliver and maintain our services and site, improve the quality of Reddit, personalize Reddit content and advertising, and measure the effectiveness of advertising. 00:53. Healing after your pets death involves accepting that you wish you wouldve done things differently and talking this through with your family, friends, or loved ones. Up until the Monday before we dropped him off there was a lot going on in the house, removing furniture, packing boxes etc, which I can only imagine how unsettling this was for him . Get off the internet and seek help immediately before you harm yourself or someone else. He died because of me. Since last two three days he would stair at the the door, try to go out alone and taking that in mind I thought of taking him outside for 5 mins. Brutally killing a pet (puppy?) My cat died because I was selfish. I dont know what else to say. I cant live in this house anymore, I threw out everything. :( I've been ignoring my puppy's snuggles for the past hour to browse Reddit. I was so weak with my hurtful day. I stopped handling her. But I feel terrible because I know how much she likes to get outside and I suppose with her being let indoors overnight by the sitter and also she may have been wanting to get out to do her business or go on the prowl and with no one present to let her get out she attempted to go out by herself and got trapped, leading to her death. A few days ago she was sick. It wasnt alarming but she was definitely more active than usual. Completely dehydrated. I could have moved his head and neck when I saw lifting the chair was hurting him. But they were outdoor bunnies, with constant access to grass. There was litter caked on her feet and also in the water dish. But I took him back again to the elevator this time he ran so fast and hard he when to the service pipeline area. And we don't know what happened, but for some reason, it went wrong yesterday. The book was nominated for the Nebula Award, but lost to Dune. Losing a friend sucks. She had her usual awareness, a few meows in protest of the day. Over the years we really did not have to deal with death. I adopted my sweet baby boy Cerberus at 3 months old. When I got out of the car, Bella ran up to me. She slept beside me in bed and sometimes on my pillow. His fur was covered with frost. We arrived home and she ate and drank. I shouldnt have been so lazy, should have acted sooner. My heart is broken. Realizing shes fine here and there without food and water. Sensitivity to the drug can also be seen in dogs or puppies that have . We've had two rabbits, two guinea pigs, a bearded dragon, two dogs, plenty of fish, snails, two geckos, and four tortoises. I lost my best friend Felix on Tuesday. Call us at 214.200.4878. Lolly had started seizing. Then I could worry about the rest of her recovery (and cost of it) later. NOT BUYING ONE. And even though I had seen her do it, it somehow was getting in her way. I don't want to go into it but it was the most horrible thing I've ever seen, and I still feel so guilty. I continued with rescue breathing. He must be hating me for getting him out of his comfort zone. I feel guilt because of the circumstances that led to his death over the past 2 weeks. I rescued him as a pup running down a busy road with 3 other pups with him. He was fond of eating lot specilly fish and meat. I saw his last minute when he peed and pooped himself. I deserve to feel this way. Im sorry and I hope you forgive me prince, I know you suffered and it wasnt right, even if you were going to die regardless last night I shouldve not left you in there with mom, I shouldve taken you to the vet so you could go peacefully. She always had food in her last year but, water was far between. Good luck. This year we found a small lump and I said we need to keep an eye on that . No sane person would do this. Her visit last November left me feeling good as long as her hyperthyroidism was under control. They gave me the medications and we went home. I just felt so bad that she was so bored at my place and alone when I had to work. Examples of NSAIDs include aspirin, ibuprofen, naproxen, and indomethacin. I was at the lake for about 35 min. so this saturday i came home to a messed up house and i snapped. Her cage was clean and she had food. (Yuma az degree is 110.) I know he doesn't fully understand, but he's just adding more to my already broken heart. I almost signed myself in to a psychiatric facility that first week. It's been 5 years since he died. Then a few months later we started to notice blood on her thats when we notice that it had got bigger and ulcerated. Yvonne in memory of Siamese cat Raiderette. I turned to take a bite of my soup and I her a thud. after a lot of back and forth we tried to get her to land with water from the hose (not a smart move.) Her pupils were completely dilated, muscles twitching, then she appeared contracted and unbeknownst to me at the time was entering a much more violent seizure. Anyone reading this Im here to grieve, and to give my story because yours have helped me. It was still a baby. I hope these tips help. The vet called late afternoon. Thankfully, Hannah (Florios sister) is both a lovebug and an attention hog. I never saw her with that ununsteadiness, rapid breathing, or weakness. So everyday I would do my best to get her used to the outside, take her out and let her bathe in water. Im the reason my Hedgie died. I even considered rehoming her several times over because of the guilt and neglect. He didn't really want us hanging around him but we all stayed with him until the end. Hit the poodle. The doctor fully supported me in that decision. She was also terrified of the ground and I hadnt taught her enough to survive alone. Not sure Ill ever be able to forgive myself. Go through the pain because the only way to get through this is to experience those terrible feelings. My cat suffered unnecessarily for quite sometime. I dont know what to do. Tuesday morning also he didnt come to our room and I found that he was sitting near the neighborhood garden. How he cried for help when I couldnt do anything. I dont understand it at times. The woman told me to call by 1pm if I had not heard from them. I really loved him, but I feel like I became so selfish amidst the stress in my life. I never left that visit thinking any real serious organ damage was happening, nor was I told to look for warning signs of anything at all. Where was his daddy when he needed him? Maybe that will sink in enough for you to realize the urgency with which you need serious help. How could I put my sweet baby in harms way!? :(, Similar to my Moms story of how she named me after a kitten she stepped on. The shame and guilt are overwhelming. I dont know how to get past this and forgive myself. I feel like I failed him and he trusted me; he was like my little brother that I couldnt have. If you did not deliberately set out to harm your pet, then you have nothing to feel guilty about. I didnt understand the rationale. Maybe you should attempt to be helpful / constructive before hateful and useless. Either way i still feel the blame comes back to me What if I wouldve taken him to the vet? I know it's been a long time but I don't think I ever accepted the loss, and I still blame myself and our carelessness. Im so sorry bibble. He was such a gentle dog and I let him down. You are irreplaceable. This never happened nor do I recall any discussion of hypertension. But then my cat died and now my hamster is gone and its my fault for not making sure the fort was secure, the pump was covered, and I wasnt there to save her. i seriously need help. I had said before we went away to leave the bathroom window tilted open because I had observed our other cat Cleo so artfully scramble her way up the window on many occasions to let herself in. We cried from the depths of ourselves. That little dog trusted me to look after her and i let her down so so badly. In my grief over the very recent, traumatic loss of my cat, and the love I have for all animals, I find the comments too triggering to read. After I cleaned it she was dry heaving again, then began to stagger and breathe very rapidly. Jordan me and my husband have a similar experience. I cant live with myself in this severe pain. No big deal, business as usual really. He reminds me of his everything. We lost a friend to suicide, we lost family to COVID, we watched a neighbors house burn down with all of their fur babies inside. Just over a week ago, I found a stray cat with a horrible infected wound on its face and one eye. I brought her back for her to suffer. When I did so, I closed the car door. The vet seemed satisfied. We rushed to the vet but it was too late. Another type of imagined guilt is if youve accidentally caused your pets death by letting him out, keeping him in, or losing track of his whereabouts. I want him back. The worst part of all of this is that he was just across the street, literally less than 100 feet from his home when he died. U should visit a professional that can help you with anger issues and I can recommend do not get a pet again its just not for you. Florio waited for me to come down and pick him up from where he was sleeping by mom and died in my arms an hour later. Im so sorry that I failed you. But, if you hit a dog, you have to stop. They took 3 but would not take the 4th one. I know that supervision is the answer for future contact with the rest of our pets, but I want to know how to deal with the fact that she actually killed something, even though it was (I hope) an accident. Dogs usually experience mild side effects from fish oil. I administered her 1 unit of Insulin and gave the first dose of Enalipril. Thats when I heard him really cry. She said not with Covid. Shes always crazing to come indoors after short spells outside. No, we are making our peace with it in our own ways, and I cant risk disrupting that. I am here today because my sweet kitten Zoe died today. I decided to bury him under a tree in the back yard. Make sure any baits you use are out of your pet's reach. Its on me. I said sorry to Lolly out loud, for so many things. He twitches his back to the side and cant make curves without losing balance. I never expected her to get so bad so quickly. I wanted to end her suffering. Your story made me cry, I'm really sorry. Because I took him out. He must be hating me for giving him such death. I believed her because she had two rabbits growing up. I know how you feel and I'm so sorry for your loss. Trying to keep her safe, actually put her in harms way and I have to live with this along with the pain and grief I caused myself and my family. Well I did that for months but then a lot of stuff happened in between time and I slacked on and off. The little thing would follow her around the whole house. My husband feels more guilty and blames himself. I think the parasympathetic nervous system was going haywire. But bless her heart she was such a good cat, always letting Cleo eat before her and so patient and would do all her business outside and never craze for anything. Whether it's long-standing baggage, happy thoughts, or recent trauma, posting it here may provide some relief. For instance, I now cringe when I recall how angry I was at my beloved cat, Zoey, for scratchingthe basementdoor (I didnt realize the door to her litter box was shut tight, and she couldnt get in). I realized she was having a neurological event. It happened in a split second. I felt I was forced into a position to have to kill the thing I loved the most in the world and my mind has yet to figure a way to live with it and my fear is that I cannot. I thought she was quiet because shes never stayed at another house before. She seemed to have some level of coming to when I would resume cpr. When Your Pet Dies: A Guide to Mourning, Remembering and Healingby Alan D. Wolfelt is a guide for pet owners who are struggling with grief when their pet dies. I think he was in shock. Noone would take them. Right away I saw him stuck under my seat. I walked around the house calling her to no avail. This vet missed red flags during routine care as well as on the last day. i would never beat him just because and i never came home looking to beat him but this anger inside of me, thats been there for 7 years, would always come out and i wouldnt realize what ive done till after ive done it. I told all my family the same story I had told to the vet and I think I will have to probably carry this lie to the grave. I knew this was a very bad sign. She was the only friend I had left. I killed my beloved pup by putting Bravecto anti flea and tick drops on him. Finally out of desperation, my wife apologizes for her inability to take action and pleads with me to take the lead. We didnt want him to lose our homes scent, but he grew more agitated and restless. Coping with Guilt. My mum was driving, and I was in the passenger seat. It was my idea to bring in the cats, and I knew my wife would go for it. Im depressed. I learned that they initiated a class action in US and Canada against the company coz many dogs died or has major secondary effects and FDA keeps adding secondary effects. And it just feels it could so easily have been avoided. My mother in law had kept our son and 6 month old Pomeranian, Bella for us. I had to kill my cat. We have spent a lot of money so far trying to heal him but he might have problems for life . I thought when she was 10 to take her for an check up for general health but didnt. I felt like I drove over a small hump and I stopped and got out to see what it was. Its just so sad and I hate to think how long she was in there stuck and struggling and suffering. This is a wonderful relationship in general. Stiffening up. We didnt want any more pain for her so we let her go . i never got him a cage but i had a little setup for him when i would be away at work, which was all day pretty much. He was a member of the family; we'd had him since he was a puppy and he never spent a moment without us - from the moment he woke up till we slept, he was by our side. It is incredibly painful. I should have taken him in to the emergency vet that is several hours away, instead I waited because I was dealing with a bad work situation and did not take off. It was two weeks before they could get him in. His adoption fee is $45. I knew not to starve rabbits before surgery, but I had stupidly assumed that as long as she had plenty to eat on the day itself she would be fine. Looking back on it I remembered my washing machine was louder than normal, but I didnt think anything of it. I wouldn't move him and stayed in the car with him. You should feel bad. Upon review of my vet visit from last year I realized that the findings the doctor reported to me did not match what she told me. Our other cat (the one whose died) is more of an outdoor cat and very self reliant with a strong hunter instinct. You should not get another animal as long as you aren't positive you have control of yourself. I basically kicked my dog to brain damage.